"Even psychosis," said Professor Orbit, "is a form of function. In a broken society, plagued by multiple intractable fears, the brain pushes the boundaries of creative problem solving so far that that dreaming brain merges with the conscious brain. The result is of course a dysfunction, yet the driving force is a desperate survival mechanism to pull a 'rabbit from the ideological hat.' Until we get to grips with dysfunctions as functions, our solutions will be nothing more than playing with symptoms."
"Psychosis is like being a rat in a maze, running and running, never finding an exit. Recovery is like the same rat looking up and realizing that the maze has no roof, that it is possible to climb out of the top."
Anyway, mental illness, being crazy, loopy, insane, sounds amusing from the outside, not so much from the inside. Imagine the worst nightmare you’ve ever had, take a moment to recall it. Then imagine you were unable to wake up from it because you were already awake. All those bizarre ideas that make so much sense when you’re dreaming start to make sense with your eyes wide open. I know you want to know if that’s what happened to me, but I’m not going to tell you too much more right now. Please don’t be offended, I don’t know you very well yet. Later on, sure.
Maybe there’s some aspect of it that worries you? You look almost sickly. Oh, I get it. You think I might drive you crazy, that me trying to “wake you up” means you have to go mad first? Hmm. Well, I won’t lie to you, that is what it means for some people, but that’s only if they aren’t with me. I can “wake you up” without the need for psychosis. Anyway, once you have some kind of “nervous breakdown” your brain is weakened, you don’t want that, trust me. Plus you could go off on almost any tangent at all. It can ruin your life for years and sometimes you don’t ever recover, not fully. You can lose people close to you, people you love, people who love you too. I don’t recommend it, not for anyone and least of all you, you’re so nice! I think you're adorable! But we need some ground rules, I need to know when you’re coming for a start...
Found in Are you awake yet? - first draft, authored by Daisy.
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