Kid, my job is to remain as your steady arms that hold you aloft, that keep you safe, that nurture and protect your soul. I am your parent. You can't let me down because it is I that hold you. I wish I could do better, but in reality, growing up has these challenges. We learn from it, grow stronger and move onwards, always onwards.
When you let me down you let yourself down too, I see that. You wanted to be there for me yet you became a source of damage instead. I can't fix that or be part of that recovery. Only you can do that. Best of luck. We both have a heartache to nurse and some adjusting to do. Neither one of us is a kid anymore and I'm not gonna be a parent to my lover.
I'm sorry I let you down. It hurts that I did. This pain, this shame, I've let it in to sear my soul, to make a better seal of goodness. You deserved better, remember that.
Only a person who can't feel your worth would ever let you down, for your soul is so pure, so good.