All my life I've been early for everything, yet this is more born of a fear of displeasing others, a sense of inner panic than it is about courtesy. Perhaps this is a thing I need to look at, such as taking an item from a cupboard that's been there a long while yet unnoticed. It's only me that can do that for myself. I need to feel my own self worth and own it.
If there is a bus to catch I'm there a half hour before, even if the weather is cold. There is something a bit odd about that. I need to open my emotions up as if they were a book and be willing to read what is on that page. That kind of self reflection is always the start of some healing journey. Some are over in a moment, others take a while, the important thing is to begin.
Be early for the good things in living, be late for your own funeral, there are too many great things to get done while your heart beats and your lungs fill. Dream big.