The coward is a figure of pity, for they haven't loving bonds strong enough to counter the instinct for self preservation.
No, man, I'm not saying you're a coward... just that I'm so impressed that you're walking around so soon after a total spine-ectomy. Tell me how many times I ignored you when you needed me... now reverse that around and ask again. I realise I'm being a total spite-fire, but right now that's all I got, it's not as if you were ever gonna show up, was it?
The worst thing you can be is a coward, to the self, to others, to Mother Earth. For the coward will sacrifice anything to save the physical self, even at the price of emotional death; they are willing to become a monster, to let the dark-self live where their true-self once did. So be determined, my love - brave, yet never fool-hardy. Stay alive, be healthy, love with all your heart, but stay on the road that is empathy and compassion, love and fraternity with a determination that will take death over failure. Have the spirit of a child, yet the nobility of a true warrior, always protective and kind.