Wasting time? No. Healing. Recharging. Allowing my brain time to process and spark up with the next bright idea. Yes. I'm neurodivergent. I'll question what others won't or can't. That's my reason for being. It's a good one. I'm part of human social ecology. I take the complex and make it simple. I find new paths where there were none. I find solutions to problems not yet recognised. I fix. I care. I love. I nurture. Call it ADHD if you must, but it's not a disorder... it's how creativity happens... so respect my process... and I will do my best to be the poet philospher society needs. If you want someone to peddal us all harder and faster off the ecological cliff... that's not me.
So many of these so called disorders show functionality in their response to the environment. For example, focus and being still is for when we feel safe, when we can spend a long time on a task and not be so aware of what is around us. Yet in a world where so many feel unsafe and stressed, the opposite brain function is leaned toward. We are supposed to have constant vigilance and be on the move. So, ADHD, function or dysfunction? I guess it depends on how you see it and if you are prepared to see the real cause in our money-nexus world.
I am a firework forever stuck in that split second after explosion, both hurtling through space and static, on fire and frozen. I am the energy that seeks a thousand paths because the way forward is denied. I am the silent scream that's deafening, but you can hear it with your eyes if you dare look.
Danny was so energetic and honest, the brightest spark in any crowd. He was the love of my life, that sweet child. To teach him we had him run, run to find his letters or the answer to a sum. He whirled and twirled and his smile... wow, I wish I could take that feeling in my heart when he smiled and warm yours with it. It was akin to watching a flower bloom, something beautiful.
Stress puts the brain and biology in survival mode - hyper vigilance and restless - sounds similar to ADHD, right?