After a hectic day, being alone is a salve, a chance for true serenity to calm every part of my being. When I have been alone then sweet company brings balance, brings joy and a renewed sense of wonder. We live in this equilibrium and there is wisdom in being in tune with these ebbs and flows of emotion.
I am alone, yet as the soldier on the battlefront, I have a picture of my love in my pocket.
The human animal evolved to need the company of others for good health, and so being alone raises cortisol levels, it is a form of stress and discomfort. And so it is wise to seek the best ways to find relief, from meditation, to pets and online company. We are a social animal, more akin to a herd mammal than the solitary mountain lion.
They say once you have mastered being alone, you are ready for the company of others, that doesn't make it easy though. When everyone's life journey separated from my own, when the only heart beating in this house belonged to me, it wasn't something most could take. For there are days when the brain becomes a cold fire, perhaps that is what others call panic, but when you are alone, who are you going to call? I guess the good news is that in time, after many unpleasant days, you are okay. Then you find joy again, or maybe it finds you. After that, your journey can change, take on new and exciting adventures... I wish I could wave a magic wand for you who are alone, but there are somethings you must learn the hard way, my love.
My home in the city could be somewhere remote, for all the visitors that come. I enjoy the cafe's yet other than that I am alone. It's odd, because I feel that I'm a good person and friend. I feel that I make good choices and love and care to the best of my ability. I am quick to love and slow to judge. I walk the extra mile for strangers, maybe that's what makes me strange. I would rather be alone thought and be comfortable with who I am than warp into someone else. I have my brain, I can think, and that I will always keep no matter what, alone or in the company of others.
Seb felt as if the world used to kiss up against his skin and laugh with him, hold him – no longer. It was as if the world had shrunken away to leave a cold void around his skin, as if he had become detached from reality itself.